Tuesday, November 15, 2005

I know where to get Versace underwear for only $47.99. That's like 1/2 price.

I want to meet the woman who honestly spends 50 bucks for one pair of thong underwear because when I meet her, I'm going to knock her down.

Monday, November 07, 2005

I Am Shopgirl

I went to see Shopgirl this weekend. And now I'm confused. During one of the [rare] heart-to-heart talks that K and I had about our relationship, he said that what was happening between us was just like the characters in that book. I hadn't read the book, and after he and I split up, I assumed the ostrich position and deliberately overlooked it as it mocked me from the best-sellers section of every airport bookstore.

So, now I have seen the movie with Claire Danes and Steve Martin and Jason Schwartzman and frankly I am baffled. Not that I don't see a parallel between the relationship(s) in the story and the one that K and I were having.

Or not having.

Or...one of us not having while the other trying twice as hard to have one.

I know. Whatever. My question is who is who in this story?

Am I Claire Danes (Mirabelle) and is he Jason Schwartzman (Jeremy)?
Am I Claire Danes and is he Steve Martin (Ray Porter)?
Is he Claire Danes and I am Steve Martin?

Let me explain. K is a little like the Jeremy character BEFORE he becomes successful, only in that K doesn't have a successful career going on and doesn't come across as smooth with the ladies. He is very intelligent, well spoken when you know him, an artist, but also an insomniac who sweats bullets when he has to meet strangers or talk about his feelings.

K is also a lot like the Ray Porter character in that he spent a year with me, making me dinner and giving me gifts, playing music for me and showing me pictures of his family, talking about his designs and showing me new outfits, holding me tenderly and telling me he is so lucky. Things that made me think that he loved me. But when it came down to it and I asked him if he loved me, he didn't answer me. He just broke up with me. He asked me to leave.

Ray Porter said that he kept the distance between Mirabelle and him so that "it wouldn't hurt as bad when she left." As if it was a fait accompli that she would leave him. And in the end he admits that he loved her.


Is thinking that K loved me going to make me feel better, or should I just chalk up the fact that he pulled away and called me less and less to the fact that he couldn't give a shit? And really, does it matter? It didn't matter to the Shopgirl.
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