Rambling, but hey, two days in a row. I started to say "this is just to say blah blah" and then I remembered Langston Hughes who I really like but someone close to me doesn't but here's what he said:

This is just to say

that I 've eaten the plums in the icebox

(but no, not me, if you knew me you would realize that I do not eat plums. it would be simply crazy. I do not like fruit and plums are some of the worst offenders. slimy texture that mushes and dissolves. plus skin that gets in your teeth. no plums, thank you.)

So here's mine:

This is just to say

that I appreciate all the help the universe has given me.

I am really lucky and I know it. I hope that doesn't sound smug because I'm feeling that way a little bit right now. Jeez. Life could be so much worse (and it could be not much better, frankly). Lucky, lucky sagittarius. Makes me want to smoke a cigarette to be honest. But see? I'm lucky. I don't smoke any more, because it smelled like shit and it was going to kill me.

This is just to say

that I keep thinking about Jessica and knowing how sad she is.

Jess, I'm so sorry that we lost your granny. I'm sorry. It makes me cry.

This is just to say

that I feel the luck of the universe close by.

October Update

I have never been so busy in my entire life, and it's exciting but scary and exhausting.

Work is crazy crazy. I am not sure if I posted the fact that I got promoted in June or July, but now there is much more expected of me and I am trying to build a team. New employees suck up a lot of my time. And on top of that, I got a new boss in August, and he has been giving me new responsibilities hand over fist. It's 9pm and I just got off a conference call with India. I'm so tired.

The new house in Tahoe is almost done but the renovation is a second full-time job. I've spent 10 weeks and $50K on the first-floor renovation, and next year I'll probably spend another $30K to renovate the second floor and convert the enclosed garage space to living space. The year after that I will sell this puppy and hopefully collect a $90K. The plan calls for me to become a licensed real estate broker, so I need to go to school for that at some point. I feel like a real business woman with this project, and it's definitely filling my desire to do a little home decorating.

Right now I'm trying to fill my ski leases (two ski leases now that I have two houses...it means finding 22 people). I have listings on Craigslist and am receiving a lot of email that I honestly don't have time to answer. So last night I talked to my roommate Eric and he agreed to manage the process for me in exchange for a spot in one of the houses. A spot is worth a little over $1000, so I'm definitely paying for this but it's worth it just in insurance against blowing the opportunity to fill both leases. In case you're interested in what the ski lease is all about you can visit the craigslist post for the Meyers house. Choosing the right people is the most important thing, and I'm giving up control over that, but I totally trust Eric.

And so I saved the best for last. Words can not describe how wonderful, how enjoyable, and how different my relationship with Michael is. We are totally in love and we're both so excited about it. I don't even know what to say about it -- there is too much to describe. I'm so very lucky.